drifted away

things have turned pretty good lately.
Engine has been started, studies are on the correct path, focus point has been switched right, class and friends are as great,
STILL, something is missing. whats that?!.....
sorry, but, my emotion is still overwhelming.

This is Marion's lecture again. Not that im being conservative, but, i still don't really fond of the way she conduct her lectures. Undoubtedly, she's a great and significant figure with unique personalities. Im totally agree that she has very brilliant mind-set, self-esteem, thinkings. , and being able to come up with lots of solid facts and ideas. Im also agree that she's a good lecturer. At least, she's responsible enough to teach based on the student rights.
STILL, the way she acts, the way she talks, and especially the phrases she used, is kinda pissed me off. Honestly, i cant really stand those f*cking-bit*hy-like of words, and especially they are coming from a highly honoured lecturer. For me, this is absolutely not the correct way of being 'friendly' with the young ones. AND, i hate the 杀一儆百kind of stuffs! ewww....
anyway, it's still a great lecture. Only 2 sentences come from myself during tutorial. argh, wasted. *am dui-ing*

The class ended by 1. Had lunch with ciel and kl. This is the day, and here goes the promise.
ICE SKATING.

honestly, im regret, for making such a promise. and Obviously, it turns up to be a big deal to me. sigh. 11 bucks. Skate for only about 6 rounds, fallen for 6 times *ouch!*, legs in pain due to the super hard skateboard shoes, and finally, cant help but got myself overwhelmed by guilt and bad feelings. ish. i hate myself for my very very poor self esteem.
Everyone seems to enjoy themselves pretty much, especially the professional honwai and meilinn. Everyone helps me quite alot though. holding my hands, encouraging, guiding me through. Feel really grateful for them, and at the same time, im really sorry that it seems that i have spoilt the overall excitement. Sorry guys. Im just being burden by my own emotion and got drifted away. Sorry dad, i will save now.

In short, i truly enjoy spending times with all the kongkamese, but sadly not skating.
还是比较喜欢脚踏实地的感觉...
Thanks guys, for making up the day! thanks for everything. im glad that i have all of u!



p/s, a week of research and process, the MASQUERADE 's done. not really nice, but HOPEFULLY u will like it. =)
p/p/s, to u, my lost BRO, pls rmb that i will always be there, for u...
p/p/p/s, last min visual com assignment, not fond of the plan, but, i trust u guys. hopefully we will be able to make it tml.
p/p/p/p/s, lulu, photo please!