drifted away

things have turned pretty good lately.
Engine has been started, studies are on the correct path, focus point has been switched right, class and friends are as great,
STILL, something is missing. whats that?!.....
sorry, but, my emotion is still overwhelming.

This is Marion's lecture again. Not that im being conservative, but, i still don't really fond of the way she conduct her lectures. Undoubtedly, she's a great and significant figure with unique personalities. Im totally agree that she has very brilliant mind-set, self-esteem, thinkings. , and being able to come up with lots of solid facts and ideas. Im also agree that she's a good lecturer. At least, she's responsible enough to teach based on the student rights.
STILL, the way she acts, the way she talks, and especially the phrases she used, is kinda pissed me off. Honestly, i cant really stand those f*cking-bit*hy-like of words, and especially they are coming from a highly honoured lecturer. For me, this is absolutely not the correct way of being 'friendly' with the young ones. AND, i hate the 杀一儆百kind of stuffs! ewww....
anyway, it's still a great lecture. Only 2 sentences come from myself during tutorial. argh, wasted. *am dui-ing*

The class ended by 1. Had lunch with ciel and kl. This is the day, and here goes the promise.
ICE SKATING.

honestly, im regret, for making such a promise. and Obviously, it turns up to be a big deal to me. sigh. 11 bucks. Skate for only about 6 rounds, fallen for 6 times *ouch!*, legs in pain due to the super hard skateboard shoes, and finally, cant help but got myself overwhelmed by guilt and bad feelings. ish. i hate myself for my very very poor self esteem.
Everyone seems to enjoy themselves pretty much, especially the professional honwai and meilinn. Everyone helps me quite alot though. holding my hands, encouraging, guiding me through. Feel really grateful for them, and at the same time, im really sorry that it seems that i have spoilt the overall excitement. Sorry guys. Im just being burden by my own emotion and got drifted away. Sorry dad, i will save now.

In short, i truly enjoy spending times with all the kongkamese, but sadly not skating.
还是比较喜欢脚踏实地的感觉...
Thanks guys, for making up the day! thanks for everything. im glad that i have all of u!



p/s, a week of research and process, the MASQUERADE 's done. not really nice, but HOPEFULLY u will like it. =)
p/p/s, to u, my lost BRO, pls rmb that i will always be there, for u...
p/p/p/s, last min visual com assignment, not fond of the plan, but, i trust u guys. hopefully we will be able to make it tml.
p/p/p/p/s, lulu, photo please!

gossip girls~

this is the first day of the semester. Remember i told u that i slept by 4 last night? well, i guess, it was 5 when i was really asleep. grhhh....i was half expecting that i will be over-slept again. But, it's kinda surprising that mark's msg woke me up, it was 8am...and i can hardly continue my dreamy sleep again. arh....how should i suppose to switch it right?!

ok,just forget about the crap. I was pretty dizzy due to the sleepless night [i think i dun really sleep]. I reached the school by 930. dizzy and blur. I double check my class,groupings, and timetables, chatted a few with some EX-classmates...[meilinn changed, howe changed, waikwan change 1 sub...sobs...they dumped me..! T.T] then i head to the classroom.

owh... and i realised comskill3 comes as first lesson.

Only chris, yao and me are in E1, and they are not around yet. Nervously, i stepped into the class. god bless. xiao qing's there. she introduced me with some of our classmates, who comes from cd085-1 as well. I got to know celine, whos being described as the peak of the god in -1. hehe~ oh, then feiyan [ i noe her during the orientation day], joe[fy's bf], edmun...[ahhh...the so-called bian tai sabah lao... haha...]... and a few more. No worries, they are all nice nice person. owh, good to noe that Chewli's in the same class with me =)...hmm, am expecting to noe more soon.

The class starts when Eddy comes in. We are asked to sit into a circle, following with our own introduction and stage experiences.. im pleased with myself for not being paiseh paiseh and diam diam. =) Honestly, i told him bout my stage experience, which involved all dramas, dance and musical instruments during secondary school. [hopefully, they will help] then, we are grouped into 4, starting on with a photo-shooting-motionless-pose, with a story behind, following with the result after all. After that, we are requested to dramatize it. oh yea, forgot to mention, xiao qing, celine and li theng are in the same group as mine. So, our story line's about girls gossiping. and.....so sadly, im the antagonist... T.T, yea, the gossiper, backstabbing about almost everyone. im okay with the outcome. hopefully it wont turn out to be too awful.
Well, the class's okay, lecturer is okay as well. [but, i still prefer cs... haha... cs, u hear me?! =P]

the class ended at 12, headed home to take my drawing block and drawing board as requested, meet up with ms in ming tien for lunch. hmm, good to see him again. Of coz, he still looked great with his just-trimmed hair. Shawn, leo, kwan, sJ, ml, kl, elaine, yern and ryan joined after some time. owh, i think they had good time in their class! of coz larh, the condition din changed much as for them... sigh, i just miss them a lot.

Crap abit with the gang, and it's time for the next lesson.... arghh... my body started to hibernate, and the brain started to lag.

as expected, we are asked to draw two a4 perspective drawings within one and a half hour. good, -.=''', for ur information, i have been the best quality piggy for the entire semester break. So, to hold the pencil and draw again, waseh... not easy, especially for all the free-hand-straight-lines. *sweating* but Thanks god, i do quite okay, and mine's being picked as one of the good sample shown in front. *phewww*.....there are quite a number of GOD in our class... i got impressed, and stunned! o.O by the way, Ck's a really nice lecturer.

class ended by 5, SIEN...stayed with the plan, me, ms and yao headed to cs office. Yao left earlier. MS and i have nothing to do.... urghh, really too sien to move even an inch... So we stayed in cs's office, disturb him happily till 73o. =) owh, talked and laugh quite a lot, happy,but still sien... T.T... Cs has to leave for an appointment. so ms and i headed pyramid, planning to take our dinner under some better environment. Aiyo, he sien i sien, no appetite. So, we sit down and talk..... talk talk talk and talk.....makin talk makin high... it's 930 when we are done with our conversation. waseh... tired, but kinda happy.

balik-facing the wall, and, emo...again...
honestly, i felt sooooo imbalance... it takes time for me to adapt to every changes.
sigh....

sincerely hoping that,
tomorrow will be a better day...
SMILE! =)