圆。梦

final count down, 2 days.



请原谅我脱节的步伐，自私的取舍...
前方要圆的，是一个发了好久好久，却真真实实的梦。

NOOO you did it again!

the right thing at the right time.
stupid xiao qing!!!
pls tell me how to stop myself loving u even more... T.T
haha..

♥
thanks., this is exactly what i need most. T.T
hugs!

依然天晴

我抬头仰望，
鸟儿自在飞翔。
那澎湃的海浪，
闪烁的希望
嗨，
久违啦，
我心中的太阳！

挥别云层下的忧伤
我握紧手中舵把，
激昂吟唱，
白浪涛涛我不怕，
撑起舵儿往前划。


虽，
抓摸不定；
善变的云雨，
落在小溪上，漂浮不定的羽翼，
心中澎湃的激情
却，
只想告诉你，
我又多感激。


我深深的呼吸，
那久违的好天气。


今天，依然天晴。

景胜,天使

210110，早上七时，
简讯上的个个字眼，缓缓敲醒沉睡的心灵,
唤醒一幕接一幕的童年回忆...

化作远方天使的你，
脱离了苦难，离开了悲痛，
在另一个极乐世界展开了另一个人生...
听说，
你很安详的走了,
我想，
爱你的人,都会为之感到欣慰吧..

也许哪天翻开旧相簿，会不舍流泪;
又或许老朋友之间每个谈话都会带有你影子，
但我相信，
那都会是开心的眼泪，挥散不去的美好回忆。

我怀念的，
会是你那刻骨铭心明朗响亮的笑声，
以及即将永远烙印心底的坚强与勇敢...


朋友，安息吧...




亲爱的朋友们，
就让我们闭上眼，用心感受那远方传来乐观开朗的笑声，
他也许就在天上的某个角落，
望着我们呢!
: )

piggy excitements

ahhh...it is 3.05 am, and i SHOULD BE on my bed singing lullabies...
ishness! Blogging mood pop out of nowhere; hmm...blame the very touching and inspiring ending of Gossip Girls, OR may be the unknown feeling aroused by double dose of caffaine...[hmm...i wonder how it manages to trigger my nervous system THAT much...]... ahhh..another semester is going to start tomorrow..YAAA...THAT soonnnn uhhhh.....

Remember when i said i beg to the god, to let me survive through the previous semester and i WONT make a noise out of it?!...hhmm well, i guess i had it broken... The result is not satisfying... AT ALL...! Max disappointment and i wish to bang my head through the result slip. Grrrh! No way no way no way! i wont let this happen again! .... it is going to be a short semester with only 3 subjects, YES... i need to focusssssssss!!! negative thoughts, bloody emotions, stupid abasement... please get out of my brain...!! let the positive thinking attracts ONLY the positive!!
a brand new year, a brand new start! :D


Was back to Sunway last saturday. Truly glad that Eleen came and stay with me for three days. I can start feeling bloody imbalance once she left. awwwww.....i cant imagine my days without her company~ thanks so muchhhhhh!!! muacks muacks muackssss!! and thanks to her network-cut-down too...:P

Went shopping at Times Square last Sunday with her. This is her, putting all the outfits together, so-called the Xmas Tree~ haha... i shd draw a big shinny star on top. Right, imagine it urself~...
Noe what, she got all of them with only 70 bucks..!! Jealous to the max, all the no-trying-cheap-clothes fit sooooo nicely on her! ...hmmph..but for me, not bad too, haha..i Manage to get 3 pieces with only rm65 bucks~ yay!! *giggle~*

nw, let's take a look on how the PIG survive through her honeymoon weeks~

YES, im a lazyyybone at home. But it ends when i got back to pj. hmmph... what exactly s the reason yah? Ah, dun care. See see seeeeee....i got all my handmade babies arranged into their new sweet home~ whooo...cant stop myself looking at them.. :D.... but STILL.... it will only be completed with the sewing machineeeee.....gotta thank Celine for informing me bout the cheap one at Tesco, the Curve.... AHHHHH... cant wait to fly there and hug my new darling back! :D... anyone volunteer to fetch me there?? please please please pleaseeeee...~~ :P...
Opps, i got TOO excited over the handmade thingy... not to forget my new layout for my working area tooooo.... wee wang wang.... my booksss have their sweet and clean home too~ It's going to be MUCH easier for me to get 'em out for fresh air! :D

tadaaaa~~ shopping queen is in action againnn...~i would call it, Pyramidsinglewindowshopping~
Got 2 shortpants from cotton on, [i cant stand my parents 'leteran', asking me to get new pants -.=''']... whoo... love the grey coat [rm99....o.O]...the pink singlet[ awwwww...i try pink!!!:P].. and especially the shoes... from F21!!... hmmph...Cotton On has few nice tops too! Too bad lah... no budget for all of them... SABARRRR*....

awww...not to forget this cutey pac-man bracelet from Diva....she wants it sooo much...
Hello Zhiying, finally i get a bday present for u! :D



back to the 2-week-long holiday...
Again, i did nothing, eat alot, sleep alot...
名副其实的猪啦...!

here's some gathering with old buddies~

dearest qinyi, was invited for tangyuen and delicious kuihmuihs again~ yummyumm~

met Hao during xmas countdown at Autocity. Then out together for Avatar few days later~
super nice and cosy FAMILY outing :D


As usual, the 4 of us~...
ah Le is still that attractive [whoooo...], Ying is still that 人小鬼大 and LaoYang is looking healthyyy..!!!! whooo..thanks god...~...She slims down darn alot!!! and finally got cute short hair d..hahaa..
nothing much to describe. hmmph...as usual lorh.. love, school... haha... oh, was attracted by Ying's weirdo pig+turtle..-.='''

T.T ....LaoYang has always been soooo sweettt....even sweeter than i WAS d.. :P..
.handmade xmas card, bracelet and even an ART BOOK!!!! goshhh.... thank u dearrrrrr...hugsss!
must jiayou and stay healthy yah!!!!!



Darling HUI back from Aus!!!!! weeeeee....Tambun seafood, super heart-warming postcards, and sweet sweet Sweetsss...! love u darrrr...

as usual, the zilianwangsuperhiao bin. ewwwww...

The last day in Pg was with kenttatt,kokhong and choonhooi.No pics taken. [see, Bin, NORMAL guys dun take pics! :P]... Headed PHH to visit ChinSeng... erm...if u want to know his condition, ask me personally. Well, it was a cosy night, with lots of flashbacks, the 5 of us are back to primary school again...
May god bless him.... ChinSeng jiayou!


Family turn!

3-day-trip to Pulau Ketam. Truly enjoy the peacefulness, and the kampungish experience...
Lotsa fun with family too during the piggy weeks. Tao celebration, xmaseve party, Alvin and the Chipmunks 2, shopping, 慈济《無量義經》岁末公演, newyearcountdown party....blahh..

万人祈福，愿世间所有人都可以脱离苦海。

[4.23am, my eyes are closing...]



all the best to me for the brand new yearrrrrr~~
chiong ahhhhhhhhh!!!!









full stop
.

*yawnssss*

to be me

Wondering when is the last time i have ever type, click "publish post" without concerning about the number of comments that i would receive [ya, if you duno, comments =people read it, to me], and without concerning bout the typing errors, re-checked and rechecked; even google-ing to make sure everything is fine before posting it up;since when i care too much about what PEOPLE like to read, but again, not what i like the most to post. I miss those times, when i start blogging, when i put all the stuffs up, and people keeps telling me they like it...
Since when i lose myself to the fake network society...?!

i ve hide it long enough
BUT NOW

when everyone in my family had gone to bed; when i have beers in my stomach, i think i have the courage to clear the air. At least, not understandable for you, but, this post is for ME. me myself....

I HATE JUDGEMENTS, especially for those who don't understand, and those who like to judge before they try their best to FEEL. This is one of the main reason i begin to hide my inner expressions, the feelings, everytime i wish to speak out something. Indeed, im afraid; afraid of the consequences, afraid of the backstabbers, and most importantly, im afraid to fall apart, once again. yah, you may say i like to stay in my own comfort zone. but WHO DONT?! i can say i have protected myself well enough towards some foreseen problems. You may say im NEGATIVE too. but again, this is MY WAY to protect, to think negatively, so that im ready for whatever bullshits that r coming.

THE LAW OF ATTRACTION?

it's my greatest dilemma.
i chose to believe, i chose to see things positively. but, when one starts thinking positively, expectation counts. and this is when you gotta face the risk. the risk of receiving greatest disappointment, simultaneously with every little expectations.

SO?

not to say im too negative to accept the theory, again, this is just my little dilemma....

It has been months since i have ever talked about my college life, din't i? honestly, it was tough for me. For once, or the whole sem, i would say; yah... the bloody semester does drag me to hell... both emotionally and physically. It was a huge attack, and i fall. Fire, guns, bullets are everywhere, but im too weak to fight 'em through. I was on my knee, begging to the god, to let me stay alive through the big mess that have been created, and i promise i wont make a noise out of it. And yah, it works... but you know what?
Everything USED to be so perfect to me, as you remember, when i first got my scholarship, step myself into the dream school, and the noisy class, brothers and sisters, huge gang of kongkam madness, and my dreams started, through my OWN hard work.Yes! everything was so perfect... until, i start to doubt myself, and until, i start to compare, and... i cant get rid of the devil in my heart, that urge for more, seeking eagerly towards compliments and affirmations, dragging me down to the earth-full of abasement... It IS so strong in me, until sometimes, it stops me against moving forward...

where has the spirits gone?

College life has become much and much tougher than i could imagine...
when everyone has their own worries, when everyone has their own assignments to rush, and when everyone has their OWN responsibilities, you are left alone... School had become the place to critique, to learn, to compare and to present. after all, everyone rush back to their OWN position, and start working hard for the next show time. To eat in their own space, to stay awake and fight through the lonely night, all alone. And SEM BREAK, oh, BYEEEE.... everyone back to their original life again.
Im not talking about the personalities, but it's OUR LIFESTYLE...and this is when i start to doubt myself towards all these.... are these going to last long? and are these all i want for my entire life?
Sometimes we SEE, we CARE, and we FEEL, but...ya...
有心无力...
this is heart-breaking...

It's cruel out there, and... it's real life, you may say...
Is this when i gotta start adapting myself through it? To numb myself through all the heartbreaking criticisms; to accept the way people SEE friends; to adapt myself into the world that is full of masks and good actors; and to face the truth that people walks in and OUT of your life, so easy that sometimes they dont even want to say goodbye? It's getting tougher for people to meet people with the same wave length... to share and to talk with all their hearts...Some people see you fall and they can make a joke out of it. Is this the real life that i should adapt myself into? Is being expressive a wrong thing, too? even appreciations and gratitude, a good thing i would say, and we cant OVER express ourselves? And when we worried about someone or something, we are said to be "thinking too much".... SO?

YES... ive lost myself,completely...
swaying through the deep oceans that is full of sharks and monsters, from island to island, forcing myself to get into people's life, keeps on reminding myself " hey, listen, this is what they want to hear, this is what you SHOULD say"....






hmmph
i have been a little bit too negative now...i suppose;
but those shits up there have been stuck in my head, so long that i think it's time to clear them up.
RIGHT NOW.

I ve been told to do what I WANT, without concerning too much;
i have been told too, that i need to find myself back before im back to the battle...

and yes,
this is what im going to do.

To complete the post without worrying bout any judgements towards the naked heart,
and TO BE MYSELF,
once again...



thgs are going to be fine,
very soon...
coz i believe, the soul is back on me again...

life's brief candle...

KAMPAR: Police have advised the public against going to the Batu Berangkai Waterfall here for picnics given the current weather.This followed Sunday’s incident where three Universiti Tunku Abdul Rahman (Utar) students drowned when swept by strong currents at the waterfall.Kampar district police chief Supt Abdul Aziz Salleh said although the place looked safe, the area could be dangerous to picnickers when it rained.

“The situation can change all of a sudden when rainwater trapped uphill flows down to the waterfall in a strong gush,” he told reporters when met at the Kampar Hospital mortuary here on Monday.

He said the victims in the 5.30pm incident were male students Yew Ghim Chnieh and James Wan Kai Khor, both aged 20 and from Penang, and female student Yew Shy Gin, 21, from Sungai Petani, Kedah.

Ghim Chnieh’s body was the last to be found. Villagers who assisted in the search and rescue operation found the body at 12.10am Monday, about 500m from where he was last seen.James’ body was found at 10.20pm on Sunday, and that of Shy Gin about an hour later.

James’ father, Khor Ewe Kok, 51, 21, said he last met his only child about two weeks ago when he returned home for a holiday in Penang.“He was very cheerful then. He was an active and adventurous son,” he added. Khor said he regarded the incident which took his son’s life as fated and accepted his death.

GOSH! what a shocking news from Hui.
James, our teammate during Pahang Lead Camp, 4 years ago.... was found DEATH!
T.T
not really a close fren of mine, but..still.....
it's freaking OMGG!!

r.i.p, james...

LIFE'S BRIEF CANDLE, appreciate life people!...

http://helpyenkee.co.cc/

anyone who wish to donate,
can kindly visit to the website stated.





Thanks, and let's do out part in helping the needy!
HELP YEN KEE!!
:D

ps, thanks zen and frens who help in setting up the website.

生日快乐!

哈哈，这张超帅的照片又令我忍不住拨出宝贵的时间,想念你一下~

哎...恨自己依然没能在你身旁陪你过生日...
远方传来的祝福, 你收到了吗...?

老杨，你要加油!



哎...好想你哦...

多希望回到当时那无忧无虑的世界;
至少,
当你需要我，
我有能力第一时间出现在你身旁...

恨自己的有心无力；
更恨自己没能参与你这些日子的喜怒哀乐...




哈，
如果你读到这里，
早应破口大骂了吧!?


是啦，我就是没有你那么理性坚强!
我就是爱抱怨，爱哭，爱说自己想你，
你能拿我怎样?!




哈...胡闹够了，
做功课去咯！...
尽请期待你的生日礼物吧~


生日快乐！





ps, 喂....要拍照都不带我送你的帽子....T.T 宣传下不可以咩?!

希望，无所不在...

“ 你最近如何? 告诉你一件事情，我今天上报耶！好害羞 ：$
上光明日报，其实是为筹款换骨髓而献上我的第一次，帮忙宣传下， 嘻嘻，谢啦！ ”

就这样，我冲到学校楼下买了自己在吉隆坡的第一份报纸.
从头版翻到要要闻，再到娱乐体育副刊...
从大字到小字，红字到黑字...

拨了电话过去，才知道北马与南马的报纸有异...
-.='''
什么啦...



哈，没想到我们一向低调的老杨，
就这样一夜成名！



太好啦......!!!!!!!!!!!!
有人就快可以滚来Ampang陪我啦~~~~~~
:D


哈哈....开心得语无伦次...
老杨，你就快可以兑现你对我许下的承诺了！


各位帮帮忙!
有兴趣捐款者可以联络我哦~
：D





所以说嘛，希望.....无所不在~

work hard☺PLAY HARDER

shd have posted all these up weeksss ago...

sorry lah..assignments 247, and u noe what im going to say next...:P
for now,
enjoy the randomness, enjoy the belated excitement~

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okay, lets start with this :D
errrr, *credit for Jun*, the only class photo, but with some classmates missing somewhere... -.='''
AD085-1 is AWESOME!...
truly glad that ive made the right decision, and im one of them now. :D
nice mates, great attitude, and im just like being in heaven, surrounded always by gods and goddesses... :P
love them~ thou i still miss CD085-3 ~

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lovely Sis is finally here!
all the best dear, thou shes doing great~ :D
and for me, goodbye lonelinessss!!!! :D

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im officially moved out of HELL!!!
and my new room is HEAVENLY great which fits all my likings! 15thfloorwithsuperbview, bigswimmingpool, comfortableroom, livingroomandkitcthencanbeusedfreely, moreaffordablerental, and most importantly, with SUPER NICE LANDLORD!...
thanks god ahhhhhhhhhh~
:D

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as the saying goes,
when theres LILY, there r tonnes of assignments...
the semester is way crazier, whos fault?! :P...
yet, we ve learned truly alot.
9/10,5/5, 10/10, 8/10, 19/20....
i wanna say, I LOVE LILYYYYY~

TYPO FOR LIFE! :)

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shopping luck flaunt lately!!!
and discounts everywhere~~

got myself few piece of nice blouses, skirt and pants with best price~:D
sadly, i cant afford this springfieldyellowbigribbon blouse YET, with only 20% discounts... sobss..and the kitchen'sbiggreyOWL had become my greatest regret! T_T

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it shd be called,the NARROWband...-.='''
it sucks at 15th floor, yet surprisingly, i found it working fast at my hometown... whooo..

.............................................

The most satisfying group effort ever!
thanks everyone for making things work!! esp Qing for being the most motivative group leader ever, all my super cooperative group members and also all my friends who turn up for the last min photo shooting. most of all, guidance from dearest lecturers~ ahhh..thank u everyone!!!!
T___T
人情债最难还啊！...

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caricature from superentaofigure lecturer,boonteong!
whooo.... love it~
:)

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the so-called COLOUR SEPARATION,
few films and few art cards,
causing 2 days non-sleep exhaustion,
and cost me 2 GREEN NOTES!!!!!!
$.$..TOA kill me enough this sem...

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*growing ideas*

refreshing green life is now within my eye sight~
:D

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of course i won miss this!
PIPIT WONDERFUL MARKET,
which allow me to meet with all my idols this time!hoooooo... excited~
met Joan with her lovely handmade beads accesories,女女with her awesome tote lil bags and fabric handmades.super friendly ireen who shared alot with me bout her handmades and also her life as passionate crafter.lenglui cherry with her delicious cutey accesories ~and finally my super idol TAKO with her amazing miniatures and her famous pretty Audrey~ cant wait to noe more crafters with their AMAZING WORKS!! :D

Gotta thanks Joan so much for recommending me with a shop called BEADING and also Ireen who shared so much with me. feel sotouched by their spirit and passions.....
work harder, and hopefully i will be one of them one day...~ :D

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PASAR SENI is always my favourite heaven of art and crafts!
am truly impressed by all the ancient creations,[click for bigger image and u will be impressed by all the detailed carvings too]
visited few galleries and finally being stunned again by all the nicely done caricatures.
:D

got a pair of cute earing with rm8 after bargains. =D
hahah....here goes the artistic earing with BUNCH of colorpencilpinsandpaperclips

*giggle*

the long waited popular book fest
sis met her classmates
and i got 3 nice books! :D

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it was wednesday with special movie ticket offer
yet we spent 18bucks each to try out the 3D effect...
cant be said as a waste, but it's not a very good experience~

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my 2nd movie since the break.
a ride to Midvalley since it's not showing on Pyramid.
thank u MS for the great movie!
am soooooo impressed by ISABELLE FUHRMAN who can act so well with her age of only 12 years old... OMG....
she can even play the role as a 33 years old WOMAN in that movie.
IMPRESSIVE, ISNT IT?

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and finally im HOMED!!

hungryghostfest, celebrations everywhere, pray pray everywhere and OPENBURNING everywhereee..
not much different for this semester break. again sleep-eat-sleep-tv-sleep-online-sleep-read ....
i should really get myself fully relax for this entire week~
哎，病魔还真"识做"，总在我得空迎接它们时主动找上门......

got my wacom, camera left. canon 1000D?
hmmph.....


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十五楼的天空，依然不比“看车”来的有感觉...
=P
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詞/曲: 郭文翰
唱 : : 郭文翰, 林智勇, 溫勝光

没能陪sunwaycircle走到最后.....
真的很遗憾啊...
但无论如何，感谢食客给了我那么多美好回忆...
JoeyPauline文翰智勇胜光冠权及众歌手们加油！
但愿彼此的友谊不会就曲终人散....
大家加油 :D

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好事双喜临门，坏事接二连三...
雨过天晴的天空不一定就看得见曙光,
雾里看花总不比亲身体验来得刻骨铭心,
短短的一个礼拜，他，他，和他，三段友情大考验...
哎...
人生就是那么的变化无常，


哈哈，抱歉，让大家担心啦~ ....
重新出发的芷苓会更坚强，更勇敢！