another end of a broken dream

略见曙光；
鼓起勇气探索，抓摸，
发现，
哈，
看似无边深渊的尽头
只不过是梦的另一端

而梦的背后是什么？
是另一场
又一场

的梦。

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indicating the color in me
SORRY, is all i can say......

blame it on ME...

still, this is a lifeless noon...
im afraid of closing my eyes yesterday night, but, To open my eyes once again and realise that, THIS IS NOT A DREAM.... is way more scarier...
huh...
really hope that zhougong can bring me further away of the reality...
tears have dried off... but my heart is still aching dully beneath my chest...

losing something is NOT a big deal, but it just happened at a very WRONG TIME...
..................................... ... .. .
He lay quietly in my jeans pocket, while both of my hand busy caring my overloaded luggage. Not much attention on him. Sarcastically, my latest handmade poker HEART was swinging shiningly showing off herself to the public... without noticing that, her friend is in great danger...
and Here comes the evil snatch thief... She was being pulled away, with her hand holding HIM! ...
they are gone.....GONE! ....
........................... ....... .............
stepping tiredly into my room, releasing myself from those heavy burdens...
a big smile appeared on my face, huh, what a relief, mission accomplished!
...and my hand move involuntarily towards my pocket....
big smile gone, replaced by heavy heart beats... u can hardly imagine how panic im... "wheres my hp?!!!" ... my mouth cant stop muttering... eyes getting heavier, and im shaking inside....
"Caltex" pops into my mind.
They call it an emergency, so im allowed to use the company phone, but not more than 3 mins. Called my sis... this is when tsunami come and attack my soul...
........................................ ..... ...... ..

Case closed, it's gone...
blame it on me!
........................................................

*dry sobs*
within a month, i lost my msn contacts TWICE,
and now,
i lost all my hp contacts, all my remarkable saved msg! .....
im so damn SUEYYYY LARHHH!!...

no more camera phone,
no more wheeee-its-a-brand-new-semester

the holiday ends damn awfully...




哎，
只好安慰自己的说句，
塞翁失马，焉知非福啊？！ ......


neway, thanks everyone!

a lesson

ehhh...
how come i got no feedback for delighting post.
see?! emo post is proven to 'deserve' more comments, isnt it?!
ahhhhhh, so here i tune back to my depressing mode..

Just received a msg from xiaoqing, Perspective class as usual on Monday. What the hell..... im depressed enough to bear nomore with any kind of stressful stuffs.
Perspective Thumbs and construction lines come all together,
fully done Indesign magazine to show on tuesday somemore....
Got no idea yet for figure final...
Silkscreen final submission next friday,
additional class practices during figure class to REDO ...
Where the hell is my Figure Sketch book?!!!!!!!!!!!!! i seriously have no more time to redo everything....... T____T

ahhhh ahhhhh ahhhhh ahhhhhhhhh ahhhhhhhhh!!!
am driving mad...

















phew.....





The week started on quite smoothly and delightedly.

Someone s forgetful enough [i suppose] to break his promise to blog for me. So, am going to blog on this. *mark! i ll rmb u!*
Headed to Petaling street again to get myself some materials, for Visual com final project. Happy enough, im not alone this time~ A blur morning indeed, for mark, i mean. Metro 10 dun pass through Mentari, as we have planned earlier. So ended up, we meet up at petaling street instead. So nice of him, to have accompanied me through my random shopaholic mood. Got myself quite a number of stuffs. one more green note burnt in one shot! *slapppp* wee~ new fabric collection! =)
It's a really enjoyable morning, hanging around with dear brother, shared alot, talked alot, and hunted for snacks together ~ hmmm.... it has been months since we hang out together last time... in short. it's truly a soothing morning..

Well, that's all... for cheerful moments.

The week started on relaxingly and quite smoothly, but it ended bloody awfully..





hopefully i can let go my stressful burden later, during the midnight show...
sigh...


HAppy birthday celine,
and happy birthday Ciel~

HUNTING fest

have been staring at the empty post for almost an hour. Hunting fest. It should be a delighting post. But... i just don't have the mood to make it cheerful and delighting... what have i been doing? it is semester break. the 'enjoyable' season where i have nothing to do, fully relax, and.... get emo!

it is the 12th day where im home. Pig- this is the only word that comes into my mind, fit exactly with myself. With the extra sense of sensitivity in me, it's truly hard for me to survive through relaxing moments. oh right, what have i done? NOTHING! i can tell you... NOTHING AT ALL! except sleep-eat-sleep-tv-sleep-shopping-sleep-online-sleep.....and sadly, nothing else... wanna jog, no energy to wake up; wanna read, cant start the engine; wanna draw, no mood; wanna yam cha, lazy; wanna design... hmm.. this one got lo... and...yea..nothing else.

i sensed the change. and it linked everything back to the old story, bringing back the old memories, which is being locked at the inner part of the memory folder, the brain keeps urging it to be deleted... but the heart is just too soft to do it. i wished that i can burst everything out, as how i wan to be... but the broken pieces left, may be too hurtful to handle. Classic, i choose to ignore... but, classic... i just cant...

it's annoying, that i dreamed something i shouldnt have. A sweet dream indeed, but i drags me from heaven back to the hell once i am perfectly awake. sobbing followed. what to do? it's not something i can control.

think of distracting myself. MSN? expecting more, dissapointing more. 'hahahaha', 'hehehehe', 'LOL'... im not laughing pun. Who noes?! a fake world for a fake hope. BLOG? no comments, no feedbacks, sien... why so different? ppl emo i emo, ppl got tons of comments but i got ntg... lengzai lenglui more comment? i duno....

So, go shopping will be a better idea. back to the title, hunting fest. year-end-sale, super good season for shopping maniac. went Queensbay yesterday. SALES SALES SALES and SALES... sigh...but with no shopping luck, got only a pair of ear rings from Vince. ok la... at least something. today, i-hate-shopping punya daddy kisiao, suggested to go Jusco. Good one. this time, i got two blauses. one from VSG, and one from jusco. sales like crazy, we shop like crazy.

feeling can be ignored, heart can be numbed. sendiri pasal sendiri tau... Again, emotion follows behind relaxation. the same feeling overwhelmed me, over and over again...when the silent falls. tears fused into the pillow, into the dream....

days go on and on... repeating with the same rythmic....
6 days more, before going back to my usual bz lifestyle.
and,
4 days more, before i hit my own target....to let go...
close the eyes, cross the hand, and wish for the best....

the title of the post should be changed
FALL IN THE OLD TUNNEL...