落幕

两年前的今天，你放开了执着的手；
两年后的今天，我也该放下这心中埋伏已久的负担了...

执着的两年，傻傻的24个月，痛心的730天
总该化上句点了...

真的...应该放下了...

期待着，
明天会更好吧...

anNiverSary...

''wira wirawati harapan bangsa, tiba masa kita berjasa, kita sahut cabaran.........."

As i always have said, Time Flies!

Well, i went Queens again today, ahh... whats more besides hunting?! hehe... have a better mood now? hmm...honestly, where got so fast one?! I received some...erm, delighting? [i guess it's] news from col mates! ahh... seejek told me that i am in 1st class the next sem, and she will be in the 2nd. kinda unexpected that we will be separated, damn fast oi! of coz, this is saddening! aiks, what to do?... but she asked me to switch to her class due to her BETTER TIMETABLE... [no Saturday class, and no till-8pm class like us... ] There's no reason for me not to switch! BUT, on the other hand, i'm in the same class with most of my cd085-3 EX classmates! SO?! dilemma... oh, delighting stuff? i will announce that once i have gone through my own confirmation~ hee~ ohohoh yea, not forget to mark it down, i got one more blouse and pair of earrings!! weeee~

all right, all right....old habit, crap again... okay, back to the main topic~

ohhh, wait, one more thing.... i met with xunmann, xiao le and yirui today! waseh, semua leng luijor....! btw, they cant really recognize me, haha... good thing uh?

okay, back now~ =P

i received quite a number of forwarded sms [well, of coz, they are all the same! ] from NS frenz, i am being acknowledged that today's the 1 year anniversary of our NS life! which means that the 30th of dec 2007, WAS the first day of my NS life~ haha... it's sweet viewing back all the memories that we had together, yea... for the entire 3 months, we spent every hours every minutes and every seconds together. the bonding has been growing far beyond normal friendship... it's just like, yea, FAMILY! ...

it's pretty normal for NS trainees to complain about their 'suffering' lives withing the GROUNDED months. But, beneath the heart, there's a sound keep echoing, reminding us about the appreciation towards the training. It's indeed one of the most valuable memories that we had in our live.

Ah, finally i got the chance to show off this superbly done video clip, done by my schoolmate, as well as my NS mate, DENNIS....[hope that u won mind!~] hehe... a nice clip bout our NS life~ enjoy!




not forget, i wish to send my best regards to my dearest NS mates!
ALPHA BOLEH!!
and, especially my best jimuis! cham, soosian, huijing, yao, i miss u guys!

happy 1 year aNniverSary!


p/s,
truly unexpected that, i met up with JIBOR, my NS malay fren @ Queens. What a coincidence!!
p/p/s,
congrats, my dearest brother, for getting good result in PMR! cheer!~

HUNTING fest

have been staring at the empty post for almost an hour. Hunting fest. It should be a delighting post. But... i just don't have the mood to make it cheerful and delighting... what have i been doing? it is semester break. the 'enjoyable' season where i have nothing to do, fully relax, and.... get emo!

it is the 12th day where im home. Pig- this is the only word that comes into my mind, fit exactly with myself. With the extra sense of sensitivity in me, it's truly hard for me to survive through relaxing moments. oh right, what have i done? NOTHING! i can tell you... NOTHING AT ALL! except sleep-eat-sleep-tv-sleep-shopping-sleep-online-sleep.....and sadly, nothing else... wanna jog, no energy to wake up; wanna read, cant start the engine; wanna draw, no mood; wanna yam cha, lazy; wanna design... hmm.. this one got lo... and...yea..nothing else.

i sensed the change. and it linked everything back to the old story, bringing back the old memories, which is being locked at the inner part of the memory folder, the brain keeps urging it to be deleted... but the heart is just too soft to do it. i wished that i can burst everything out, as how i wan to be... but the broken pieces left, may be too hurtful to handle. Classic, i choose to ignore... but, classic... i just cant...

it's annoying, that i dreamed something i shouldnt have. A sweet dream indeed, but i drags me from heaven back to the hell once i am perfectly awake. sobbing followed. what to do? it's not something i can control.

think of distracting myself. MSN? expecting more, dissapointing more. 'hahahaha', 'hehehehe', 'LOL'... im not laughing pun. Who noes?! a fake world for a fake hope. BLOG? no comments, no feedbacks, sien... why so different? ppl emo i emo, ppl got tons of comments but i got ntg... lengzai lenglui more comment? i duno....

So, go shopping will be a better idea. back to the title, hunting fest. year-end-sale, super good season for shopping maniac. went Queensbay yesterday. SALES SALES SALES and SALES... sigh...but with no shopping luck, got only a pair of ear rings from Vince. ok la... at least something. today, i-hate-shopping punya daddy kisiao, suggested to go Jusco. Good one. this time, i got two blauses. one from VSG, and one from jusco. sales like crazy, we shop like crazy.

feeling can be ignored, heart can be numbed. sendiri pasal sendiri tau... Again, emotion follows behind relaxation. the same feeling overwhelmed me, over and over again...when the silent falls. tears fused into the pillow, into the dream....

days go on and on... repeating with the same rythmic....
6 days more, before going back to my usual bz lifestyle.
and,
4 days more, before i hit my own target....to let go...
close the eyes, cross the hand, and wish for the best....

the title of the post should be changed
FALL IN THE OLD TUNNEL...

adapted?

the change, or... sensitive?



adapting...

let's party~

this is my 11th day of the semester break.
ish, my brain has been rusting.... i cant even figure out a better opening. hmmph... =P

SO, today's focus~ tadaaa..... it was my dearest sis birthday yesterday. AND here we had a birthday party. Whao.... i can hardly remember when was the last party held in my house. Was it my 6-year-old birthday?... ah...
searching from the memory folder....... llllll 24%

erm, the birthday girl insists of preparing everything herself. From butter cookies, egg tart, cheese tart, muffin, to her own birthday BLUEBERRY CHEESE cake, she made them all! waseh.. pandainye amoi ini....
shh, 别说我没有介绍，她可是个单身好女孩哦~! =P






.....yummm....~
Wonder No More, they hit the standard as yummy as they are from the bakery...
but.....they are fattening... sobss... =P

OF COURSE, as her 24孝 good sister, i do have some important task, other than being a good cameraman and a great helper in the kitchen~ =） hmmph, here goes my first artwork during the semester break~


haha, if you are wondering how can so many things be done in a day, i am actually trying to squeeze 3 days stuffs again in one post. hehee..~
So, the party comes next at the xmas eve~ my sister invited quite a number of frenz, but i only invited 2, actually 3, but kent tatt is celebrating his xmas eve with her gf. 有异性没人性，wat to do noh... haha... truly enjoyed the night with my old jimuis and family. oh yea, and my little prefects...~





ahaaa... my turn my turn~
am happy to receive a surprise from siewthing. Wasehh..i got a present as wellll~ touched! T.T


it's always nice spending time with old frens. Classic, we chat for the whole night, covering almost everything about our recent lifes, since we apart, for.... few months for qinyi and half a year for siew thing~... duh, i miss them much!
thanks Thing for the present, i love it! you have got your true love now. forget the past, and aim for the future!! must stay happy ah!
and, you, yeohqinyi... cepat go and grab a bf larh... not young d woi! =P wan me intro?

the party ends at about...11pm... together with my dearest family, we head to the Autocity for xmas count down.

And before going into the topic, let's express my jealousy..... SEE.... this is what my sis got for her 17th birthday!!!! T.T ..... i can still remember my 18th...dying with assignments and received no present at all...... pathetic enuf uh.... T.T nvm, i am looking forward for my 19th. u noe how to do larh... U...yea, dun look around d, IT'S U! =P


Autocity was not as packed as the previous xmas eve. but, this time, with celebrities!! hmm, i can only see Henley, Kay and John... so sadly that when i press down the button to start video recording the count down, the screen showed, BATTERY EXHAUSTED...-.='''.... got the photos from uncle's cam. *thanks~*



3 generation~ mummy, ah ma, and i~


it's 3am when i got home. smsed with frenz, took shower, and head to bed...
ohh, from 3am to 3pm today.... ahaaaa...it's holiday!

merry xmas!

冬至快乐~

again, i did nothing for the day...got, BLOG LO...-.=''' sien ahhh.....
but, here goes something different~ weeee...
dearest jimui called me up for tang yuan. ahhh....makan again....hehe~
my family does not follow the tradition. so, thanks larh, YEOHQINYI~
mm...yumm~

as usual, we chat for the whole evening... it's always so nice being with her larh~ lots more story to go... haha... see yea again, few days later..! muacks, love ya~



p/s, 'still the same', her mom commented.... ahhhhh.... too bad uh?!..T.T

KONGKAM journey~

it's again a belated post about the trip. hehe... paiseh larh~
not much to write, seem it's a KONGKAM trip~ so, let the photos tell!~

ahaaaa....kongkam EXTREME behaviors!


the first activity of the day~
credit for CIEL,the PRO chef, meilinn and honwai, the PROOOO ranger and scout, and all the kongkamese, for habiskan makanan yang berbukit ni~



BEERS follow next~

wasehhh...now i noe, pandai minumnyee budak-budak ni....
credit for Karleong, we drink beer, he drink milo...-.='''
ahhhaaa....extreme action again! this time, done by longkachia... JUST after i snap the photo, oh o....


hampalang mabuk dan tidur mati... -.='''


tinggal saya, karleong dan honwai stay awake through the night... wee~ clappppsss..

hmm, for the whole night, we shared alot. Yea, we have known each other better, and deeper. Good thing uh? but why i felt.... shocked? Not because of their background, but my own perception. I was shocked that, my circle of life is actually very kind, too kind that i will even feel sad for almost every little things that happened around me, which seems to be NOTHING or, BIASALERHH.... for the others. No pain no gain... i have to agree with this uh? but why, cant we just grow and learnt things without going through pain? sigh, it's life. Not that i am too innocent to realise the darkness behind. but, it's my life, my circle of life where i am being in so far. i hate the darkness... i am sure that i will choose to see the world which is still kind and remained undamaged. It's not the matter of being tougher or stronger, it's the hardness of my heart, and my soul. it may be hurt, though... but, my perception will be still the same... until, anything that will lock and numb my heart forever....

ahhh, too far too far.....come back~ hehe...


all rite, so, here goes the next day....



everyone have their own activity at the beach. the guys fool around on the beach, while we girls kutip siput in the sea~ very nice ehhh! to be made into souvenir~敬请期待~

whao, credit for karleong's family... our lunch! waseh... sweet uh!


ahaaa..our main focus~ the bday surprise!



so, the plan starts with my kesikesi test on meilinn, for the birthday present. glad that i know what she likes. then honwai karleong and mengshen get the present from ikea. waseh, honwai's 最危险的地方，就是最安全的地方 technique memang berkesan. She dun even notice the big IKEA plastic bag throughout the journey... our planning is perfect at the beginning. sigh, blame the perasan bday girl, and me, T.T the lousy actor... aiks.. so, honwai and kl go out to buy the cake. they came back with a small slice of cake, acting that it's our ONLY plan for the celebration. haha....bday girl ini memang 好骗... after the rehearsal, karleong drives most of them out to get some drinks. pandainye honwai ni.... this is when he comes back with a big secret recipe chocolate cheese cake... then we set up inside the room and wait for the others~..so, SURPRISE! ahaa....a very successful one! meilinn said that this is her syokest bday~ weeee!!

kongkam mission follow nextttt~ hahaha.... here goes the men of the year!~




<<<<.....the unicorn?

oh o...18SX!!


aiyo....whisky and drunk again...-.=''' this time, semua tidur mati...




T.T...... here we reach the last day of the trip..... sobs sobs....
not forget, SNAPPPP~







karleong suggested to makan ice after checking out~...

ooopssss.... sorry ah~ but kongkam ma.. :P

at the seremban KTM station toilet, sigh, wonder why i so sooi... terserempak one ah po... with tears in her eyes, she claimed that she lost her wallet, and need some money to buy ticket back to ampang... -.=''' our ticket towards setia jaya 6 ++， her ampang ticket cost 8++... what the...
so i lead her out the toilet towards the others... omg, she started to STICK tightly with me.. honestly, i dun feel anything wrong at the beginning, until we gave her 10 bucks, and she asked for 5 bucks more from me... glad that CS called...i terus walk away to answer the fon call... when i went back to the group again, yish...she sticked back to me again...so, here goes her repentance... she said that she shouldnt ask money from student....blah... then draw a cross, said that the god will bless us.... and KEEP EMPHASIZING THAT....我不是坏人...-.='''....grhhh... please just go awayyyyyyy...... even when we are in the ktm, she keeps waving her hand, want me to go out.. i terus take one book and block my face...... grhh...

i feel down...sighed.. why? as i said... i choose to believe everyone... but...it's like... i tend to be helpful, but it seems to be wrong.... sighed, may god bless her ba....


the trip ends, with elaine leave 1st at serdang, following with mengshen and waiyern , then ryan, honwai, chinyao and longkachia at kl central... left 4 of us back to sunway... sighed... i hate the feeling, seeing everyone leaving one by one, while i left behind.. sigh, felt so imbalance!
tired, but ciel, ml, kl, hw and i pia through the mid-night show... The day the earth stood still.. hehe... not really a nice show, but nice, with nice frenz around~

so, padan muka i, the next day i will be goin back, 1pm bus somemore... i haven start packing... and, yea, for the presents.... aiks, sounds regret, but still, memorable... haha..



dear kongkamese,
it's the best trip and the best gang i have ever been in... really thanks guys..!
wonder how i turn from a 无名小卒, into the daigaje of KONGKAMNESS.... but i have never feel so contented before... i am happy, truly happy being with u guys! thanks, for lightening up my life in toa! wonder how my life will be, without u guys.... especially when i like to stress myself up and turning emo easily. u guys bear with me and never give me up.... if someone said that, i become optimistic jor, WONDER NO MORE, it's ur jasa! muacksss....i love u guys!
next sem, diff major, diff timetable, diff assignments, diff class.....we are on different path of life, though, but our heart will always be together, right?

our pace may be different, for future, but, stays the same, for our frenship...
KONGKAMNESS FOREVER! say kongkam, say KONGKAM!!!


p/s, how good, if cs, mark and seeJek are here with us....